after 7 months of so called unpaid leave, i thought i can finally get to spend money like nobody business again. i've made plans with dar to go shopping after work today and was very excited about it. but due to unforeseen circumstances, having to accompany my M-I-L to make an appeal for my B-I-L court fine at the meet-the-mp-session, all my looking forward to shopping spree remained a history. by the time we finished appealing for his summon, it was already 9pm (nak shopping apa macam ni, shopping centre pon dah nak tutop). then dar called to say that he's meeting me at the resident corner coz he wants to get dinner. so i thought it was not a bad idea, have dinner at coffeeshop instead of shopping. my M-I-L proceeded home with my baby girl. and thus i waited for my hubby. while waiting for him, that gave me some time to think about what i would like to have for dinner. the thought about having mee kuah at the mamak shop kinda make me more hungry. almost 20 minutes but his face haven't shown up still. i got frustruated. called his mobile but no answer so i reckon he didn't bring his mobile phone with him. so i waited until i saw him walking with a plastic bag. the first question i asked was of courselah why so late. and then he steadily said he went to ta-pau rojak. the more frustruated i became. never get to shopped and dinner is rojak. in the end, i started my tantrum and bought cup noodle instead and zipped my mouth for the rest of the evening. dunno what happened to the poor rojak or my poor husband coz i went to bed right after that.

Apparently still in the office at this hour, boohoohoo. I started off with a perfect day and end it in a nightmare. I began today's workload all by myself, no more coaching from the angel Sue, the previous secretary as her last day was last Friday, boohoohoo again. So here I was this morning, managing all the workload by lunch time and everything was going on smoothly except the silly me didn't realised that all the emails that I've sent out was actually still in my outbox and not sent yet. And what time did I realised this?? When it's half to six! Microsoft outlook was not on my side when it went berserk suddenly. Program began to not responding, dunno why. Thus, I re-start, turning off, switching on until I lost count and still no luck. Conclusion, I had to crack my brains to draft all that emails and use my colleague's pc to sent it out. By the time I finished everything, time is now 8pm.... got such luck meh??? And another boohoohoo... I have to brave myself walking in the dark (since it's raining outside) on the narrow road outside, in between the factory buildings where there's dogs running around (hopefully these dogs are not in packs.. if not confirm mati aku malam ni) but again, I was having this thought of calling the cab and get me picked up from the main gate... *sigh* with the heavy 5kg washing powder and tissue box that I purchase from Fairprice this morning... confirm takde chance nak lari jauh2 kalau kena kejar ngan anjing-anjing bajingan pat luar sana tu. *another sigh*

Now that my plogger is up and running, I will update latest pictures on phlogger instead of scanning and posting them in my upcoming post. Reason being is I don't have the time to do the scanning and posting at the same time, unless I stayed late in the office (but who would want to do that, kan?) Until to such time when I finally own a digital camera, then you'd see all picture postings on my text post. For now, I'll just snap on my Mitsubishi hp so scroll down on the left side of my blog and check out the plog msgs, right below my archive section. Till then, toodlelooo...

Puteriku, senyummu menyentuh hati. Renungmu seolah mengerti. Tangismu memecah sunyi. Puteriku, penglipur lara di kala sepi. Kaulah cahaya di sanubari. Hadirmu terlalu dinanti. Puteriku, lahirmu ke dunia ini. Bahagia terasa perasaan kami.

Niari, boss gi KL (macam Crab cakap... "ini opis aku yang punya.. hahaha") so dapatlah aku update sikit ni blog, kalau tak peminat (macam betul jerkkk!) pon boring nak datang ni blog.

Trisyia baby having a fun time going for a ride with her ayah..

Mama & daughter enjoying a shopping spree... good life at that time, no need to work.

Baru 3 bulan, sibuk nak tiarap & duduk... badan dah ringan sangat agaknya.

hubby & wifey posing pat Zoo Melaka. anak tinggal pat bishan, mak bapak gi holiday 1 hari.. boleh gitu? ekekekeke.

This is the story that I'm going to tell tonight. I felt irritatingly disgusted with this situation myself. I wonder how some people can be so manipulative and cunning like an old sly fox or for this case, a vixen. Perhaps some knew about the incident whereby my eldest stepson walked away from us to be happily reunited with his mother. Now, even the youngest, that I trusted and put on high hopes, as high as KLCC, left us with just one snap. At first, it was merely a weekend getaway. Then, it turned into a school holiday getaway. Lastly, it was a getaway forever. I felt totally betrayed, betrayed by the kids over my love, care, concern and sacrifice. I love them like my own. I took them in when they were so called abandoned by their own mother. I sacrifice a whole lot, taking them on my honeymoon trip, stopped myself from having my own children just to make sure they have my love and attention, educate them properly, bought them stuff that they couldn't get from their own parents and even helped their own mother when she was helpless and needed help. In the end, the fairy tale turns into a big nightmare. I tried my best to be a good stepmother, unlike those of Cinderella and Snow White but the goody good me was backstabbed and worst, I got stabbed right in my heart. I got hurt real bad, really. I haven't got over with the 5 yrs job that I lost, haven't got over the period whereby I was pregnant and jobless, haven't got over the period when the eldest left me just because of a stupid play station game and now this. Tell me, which woman can be so strong going through this? If not because of my newborn that I had long hoped for, I might have gone mad. I am expected to stay strong, patient and calm as this is the destiny that I have chose but for how long? Strong can be weak, patience has endurance and calm can turn to chaos. Is this my fate or is this a retribution for not listening to my parents back then? I felt so stressed up and I hate them so damn much for making me like this. The mother has finalized her divorce with her 2nd ex-husband and now is living under the same roof with her new boyfriend at east end. The poor children have to travel long distance each morning and afternoon to school that is a just 10 minutes walk from my place but yet, they're happy. Why? Due to all the freedom that I restrict, they finally got it over there. Books aside, games everyday, cycling daily without any adult supervision while the mother is at work. So much for hating the mother, I hated the kids as well now. Thus, one day, should anything happens and the kids wish to come back to their daddy, I will never accept them in my house. If so it does happen, I will be the one to step out. Am I so cruel? How I wish I could be Fifi, Dwi's stepmother in the Indonesia drama DIA. How cunning, how well planned and how good she handled this situation of being a stepmother. Dear God, please help me to stay saint, forever!!

I suddenly realized that I'm not that young anymore, thanks to the posting from my lil frat. I'd better plan for a healthy life from now.. erkk.. but when should I give myself a start date huh? Haiyahhh.. another stress!! Dear Doink, factors that increase the risk of coronory heart disease: (1) Improper diet (2)Stress (3) Smoking. The fact is that you're a smoker and as a smoker, you should at least know one of the chemicals contained in your cigarettes. The one that you and I should be interested to talk about is nicotine. Now nicotine is the addictive drug that is present in the tobacco. It makes blood clot easily. Therefore, it increases the risk of blood clots blocking the blood vessels. If such clots block the coronory arteries, a heart attack may occur. Next, I've seen you trying hard to lose some flabs. That's very good. Just to let you know, a proper diet is important in reducing the risk of atherosclerosis which often begins early in life. A diet rich in saturated animal fats should be avoided. It should be substituted by polyunsaturated plant fats. The latter may lower the cholesterol level in the blood. So having stress in your office will conclude that you have 60% chance of having a heart attack. Take care, kak. From BioPuss. Thanks a hell lot Adik. After reading your post, my whole day was spoiled.

my little princess, sarah batrisyia. now 3 months old (how fast time really flies), she's really an amazing baby. did not give me any problems (other than being breech) throughout my pregnancy. and she's a very well behaved little girl since newborn. all she does mostly is feeding and sleeping. i can even do my shopping, carrying her along. she rarely cries, the only loud cries that I've heard before is when she's really hungry (for milk). she's an angry baby when she's hungry but other than that, she's so very easy to take care of, not only for me but for others as well. my parents, in-laws and relatives enjoyed taking care of her coz she's not a crabby baby. can't tell if she might change later but for now, that's her. even for her 1st to her 3rd month injection, she just cried and then stopped, no fever or nothing and during her circumsize, she didn't even cry! as what I can see, she might be a one hell of a "tahan lasak" baby just like her 2nd brother. good baby! mama and ayah love you so very much.

the reason i haven't been updating my blog is due to the daily work loads that i have to look at with my new job. i've found myself a new job as admin co-ordinator cum secretary and basically the company is dealing with modular carpets product for the hospitality industry. so which means, i'm back in project line, just like whatever i'm doing in my ex-company as my ex-post except that it's more hectic at this new job. apparently, my working hours (probably because i'm new) really stretches so long. since it's near to my home, i'm always the only one who reports early to the office. it's the first experience to work from outside town area anyway so i kinda enjoy the half an hour bus ride. the only pain is to work till late hours, not because of there's so much things to do but because the current secretary practise leaving only after the boss left (what a joke!). i've got easy access to the net but because of the always-busy-and-always-got-something-to-attend-to state, i seriously got no time to even check my personal emails. i've got a little spare time this evening so i thought, updating my blog would do me some good. i have a lot to tell but just no time to write now. i've updated a few stories that i wish to share at home but i've forgotten to bring it to work so that have to wait. more over, with little sarah at home, i just have got no time to do anything else at this stage, now that i'm working. there's photos that i wish to upload, story about my youngest step-son who followed his elder brother's step and lots more. wait for my juicy postings... there's so much to tell... helppppppp.....

passport photo of baby sarah. macam one of the 10 dwarfs.. ekekeke...

silent night, empty blog.. i've not been writing for past a month now. no opportunity on using the net. baby is growing inches by inches and the next thing you know, she's goo-ing. life is a nightmare now, not because of baby sarah but because i haven't got a job yet. interviews over interviews and still no luck. even production operator needs experience... phooi! i thought based on years of working experience and qualification, i've had a 90% better chance than those makciks that's there for the job but i was wrong. my experience is only on office line and not manufacturing line. i wouldn't be surprised if one day, to become a production operator, they'll need A level holders. really terok! but well, all that happens in june. now that i've someone who can take care of baby sarah should i be at work, its a relief that i can finally find an office job rather than ending up being a minah kilang. now that i've completed sending my resumes and walk-in interviews this whole week, i should be happy this weekend. dar will be treating me and baby to some shopping this weekend finally. i like.....