esok adalah hari kebangsaan singapura yang ke 40-tahun. selama 40-tahun singapura mengecapi kemerdekaan dan selama itu jugalah singapura telah bertukar menjadi tamadun yang berwawasan. steady-lah doink, macam cikgu suruh buat karangan pulak. teringat waktu sekolah dulu, kalau dah nak dekat sambutan hari kebangsaan, mesti ada karangan sebegini. apa pula persiapan aku untuk sambutan esok? persiapan? persiapan untuk tidur awal dan bangun lewat tengahari tu adalah. ataupun persiapan untuk keluar dengan hubby & baby memang awal-awal dah plan. tapi persiapan sebagai rakyat singapura? entahlah eh, memang aku ni bukan jenis patriotik agaknya, jangan cakap nak gantung bendera, bendera singapura pon sememangnya aku tak simpan. tahun lepas, memang ada jugak niat nak beli bendera baru and gantung pat koridor, tapi bila memandangkan jiran sebelah menyebelah semua takde satu pun yang gantung, terlepas hajat nak jadi patriotik sekejap. konon pulak, besok nak ikut celebrate pat padang yishun tapi oleh kerana semalam aku anak beranak dah pun jalan-jalan pat northpoint, macam malas pulak nak patah balik tu tempat besok. oh cakap pasal jalan-jalan semalam. aku dapat voucher swensen $20.00 dari amex. since semalam pon memang takde apa-apa program selain dari aku gi visit parents in the morning, aku ajak hubby & baby gi swensen. order itu, order ini pon cecah $40++. tapi not so badlah pasal ada voucher tu. baby sarah mengamuk bila ayah dia lambat suap ice-cream. bukan main lagi ni baby satu, baru 4 bulan, taste bud dia menyerlah. benda tak sedap dia tak nak, benda yang sedap.. 1 minit habis, especially Carrot puree from Gerber. Banyak sangat makan carrot agaknya, mata jadi terang berderang sampaikan sudu ice-cream swensen belum sampai mulut, mulut dah standby menganga.... (doink geleng kepala) baby.. baby.. apa nak jadi...

makkkkk sakit perut. makan apa? jemput-jemput. siapa jual? mama janggut. mana dia? sudah cabut!!! tengah sakit perut ni, tetiba teringat pulak tu pantun yang aku selalu nyanyi masa budak-budak dulu. memang tengah sakit perut, bukan akibat salah makan atau terlebih makan tapi akibat makan nasi dengan lauk warna merah. hah, pelik bukan. korang mesti tertanya-tanya lauk warna merah tu lauk apa. bukan masak merah tau. ini kes aniaya punya tapi silap aku jugaklah. tadi colleague aku keluar hantar barang. on the way dia nak balik ofis tu, dia call tanya aku nak makan apa, dia nak belanja nasi padang. so aku cakap aku tak cerewet, janji pedas dan tak nak daging. bila aku bukak bungkusan nasi tu, wow memang harum baunya menusuk ke lubang hidung tapi aku tak tahu macam mana nak makan. nasi putih, lauk ikan pari asam pedas (ada ikan dia), udang sambal, sotong sambal dan tahu masak sambal. haizzz.. mentang-mentang aku cakap janji pedas, semua jenis sambal dia kasik pat aku. hah amik kau, nak tak nak, terpaksa jugak aku makan, tu pun tak habis sebab lebih minum air dari makan. pedas bukan kepalang kalau dah semua sambal. tak ke sambal kooniang namanya tu?! untuk colleague aku, terima kasih daun keladi, mulai besok tak yah belikan lagi.

semalam mood aku hilang lagi dengan tetiba. tak tahu nak salahkan siapa? salahkan penceritanya iaitu suamiku atau salahkan orang dalam ceritanya iaitu bekas isterinya yang aku gelar dabitch. mungkin kedua-duanya sekali harus dipersalahkan. kelmarin, dabitch saman suamiku ke mahkamah kerana tak beri duit nafkah untuk anak nombor dua yang ikut keluar rumah untuk tinggal dengan dabitch. dah physco tu budak, dah nak sangat jaga tu budak, apasal in the first place tak teringat pasal expenses untuk jaga tu budak? baru sebulan jaga, dah tak mampu nak tanggung? what a joke?! bila turun mahkamah, dabitch tetap tak nak settle sebab katanya dia nak naikkan maintenance untuk budak-budak tu. suamiku pulak tetap tak nak bayar kalau dinaikkan maintenance, sebab katanya macam saham pulak ada naik turun, terus beri amaran supaya dibicarakan, dipenjarakan dan kemudian satu sen pon dabitch takkan dapat. hah amik kau, dabitch. mungkin pasal takut tak dapat satu sen pon, dabitch mula buat baik dan talipon suamiku, mengatakan dia akan batalkan appointment seterusnya di family court dan kemudiannya sepakat untuk mendapat seberapa yang suamiku mampu berikan. tapi yang aku tak boleh terima dan terus buat mood aku hilang dengan serta merta ialah bila dabitch suruh suamiku jual rumah and downgrade to a smaller flat. who the fark she think she is sia'? bini tua ke, suka-suka nak suruh suamiku buat itu / ini? share pon takde dalam kehidupan kami. apa, suruh suamiku jual rumah then bila dapat duit rumah, bayar dia lumpsum untuk maintenance budak ke apa? harlow.. aku ni tak wujud ke? langkah dulu mayat aku, confirm aku bangun kalau pasal dabitch. yang suamiku pun satu, sepatutnya gi lah maki ke tempelak ke marah ke sebab soal rumah bukan soal dabitch tapi suamiku gi cakap, tak boleh downgrade pulak. setakat tu jer respon dia untuk soalan dabitch. apa tak menyirap darah aku. kalau aku jadi suamiku, setelah disaman, dibawak ke mahkamah, takkan nak kasi muka ngan ni dabitch beb, mesti aku cakap punya, urusan jual beli rumah bukan urusan kau. tolong jangan feeling yang kau tu masih ada apa-apa dengan aku untuk kau ajukan soalan macam ni. lagi satu, kalau pun aku jual ni rumah, kau jangan harap aku akan kasi kasi kau selepuk. kau rilek satu korner pon cantek. hah, kan sedap sikit. memanglah tak sepatutnya tapi kalau dah macam ni punya pompuan, harus ajar sikit jadi tak pijak kepala. lepas tu ada hati ngadu nasib dengan suamiku, mengatakan rumah dia jugak tak boleh dijual dan sekarang dia menumpang di rumah boifren dia. memang harus pon jadi besok lusa, kalau boifren kata putus, terus kena tendang keluar. silap haribulan, ketuk balik pintu rumah aku, suruh kasi budak-budak tempat tinggal... kalau that time tiba, jangan haraplah aku nak bukak. busuk-busuk dia make use of aku dan suami, satu hari akan kena retribution jugak, antara cepat ngan lambat jer.... amin.

i don't know what to write today. wanting to talk about my work problems but it's an endless tale. then i remembered all the comments that i sometimes received from my little fratello; be it a nice one, encouraging or at time so irritatingly crude. therefore, i wanna take this opportunity to talk about my lil frat. adik, if you're reading this, just sit back and enjoy. my lil frat is a good man, so good that i will love him no matter what happens. i've seen him grow from a little baby (which i must say is so darn cute and adorable than my lil sarah) to a young teenager. something to ponder, i used to teach him when he was in his kindergarten but now, looks like he's teaching me instead (yerlah.. poly katakan, kakak kau ni setakat polyclinic nyer graduate). the best thing about him is no matter what he wear, he still looks charming. the only bad thing that i think irritates me most is his mood swings. he can be nice at times, but when his moody woody time came by, you wouldn't want to waste your time talking to him. he's like that since before but again, i still love him. thought i might do this before i go off from office tonight. too much studying sometimes can cause you brain damage... just like me, so much work, so little time, the migrain comes and goes. so take five, relax and play with your two darlings when you have the time. conclusion; why i wrote this, perhaps because i'm sick of sitting back and trying to enjoy the comments coming from you thus this time, it'll be revenge of the scorps.

I felt so lazy this morning that I had to dragged myself out of the bed. Journey to work doesn't seem a pleasant one either. I had enough sleep but just can't work out why I felt extremely tired and lazy today. Perhaps today is Monday or perhaps I didn't get a chance to rest well over the weekend. Now I regretted, doing shopping the whole afternoon on Saturday and attending wedding on Sunday made my Monday a total wreckage. Although I got to wear my new blank pants, it just seems pointless when my eyes looked horribly tired. Kopi-C didn't help either. Let me have a flash back on the weekend. I felt so tired after my shopping spree at Centrepoint. Manicure over at Daisy's Nail Art didn't turn out well. It was duely my fault, luckily it was done free... hehehe.. I shouldn't have done manicure when I know I'm going to shop for clothings. Thus, when I was trying out my pants, I accidentally scratched the newly polished nail. Duh! So much for wasting my sister's time. I had the whole afternoon doing shopping and when I came home, Dar was fast asleep and so I unpacked most shopping bag. Only to realize that I spend so much on little Sarah's stuff rather than mine which was only 2 black pants. Although I turned in at 10pm, I was awakened by Dar's heavy snoring. I had to wake him up, really coz I couldn't sleep with those hard snores. Since I couldn't sleep, I decided to watch TV but instead, I doze off somewhere at 2am. And Dar's hp rang at about 4.50am in the morning. Conversation sounded so serious. I eavesdropped and heard that his brother whose serving NS was beaten outside China Black pub. There I was, having to accompany my hubby to TTSH at 5am in the morning. Apparently his brother had too much too drink coz when I reached there, he had to be wheeled to the taxi stand. Can't even walked properly. Betulnya susahkan orang. Arrived home nearly at 6am and there she was, my M-I-L, scolding my B-I-L at the top of her voice. I told her to shooosh coz it was no point scolding a drunk man and for goodness sake, it was only 6 in the morning (malu lah dengan jiran sebelah menyebelah!). I opted to have a nap at nearly 9am and woke up by 10pm. I got a hangover instead (lain orang yang minum, lain orang yang pening). And the rest of the days were spend at my uncle's wedding in Jurong West..... there goes my weekend. Looks like I have to really rest this coming Saturday since it's my off day.