My pinggang so very the sakit and I am so very the ngantok. I worked hard over the weekend, trying to get all errands done since I was not working last Saturday when I'm supposed to. JL exchanged Saturday coz there's a job tender to complete. Before the weekend, met KakMil at Far East Plaza where we buka and shop for our children's clothing over at Lucky Plaza. Then from Lucky Plaza we walked to John Little where we did another shopping, pon baju bebudak jugak. Reached home nearly 11pm coz of the traffic jam over the highway and luckily hubby tak work that night.

::3rd day of fasting::

::Western food for sahur::

::Hokkien mee for buka::

Saturday pulak, after sending my mum-in-law nya aunt to ICA Building and sponsor to extend her visit pass, I went back home and had a nap. Anak beranak tidur since it's also raining outside. When I woke up at 3pm, decided to ajak hubby to Geylang since I will be spending my Sunday at my parent's place. We walk walk, shop shop and when we reached home, I think I spend my money most on food and VCDs. Haiyah, lain yang dicarik, lain yang dibeli. I think this is common food syndrome during Ramadhan, every food that you lay your eyes on, you want it. Then bila time buka, I only eat the one that looks very nice and by the time I finished that, I can't sumbat the rest that I bought. A lesson to learnt everyday, tapi tu pon kadang tak serik, masih jugak nak beli macam-macam food for buka. After buka on Saturday, I went off to my parent's place with my little baby to help mum kemas her barang-barang to shove inside her new-built kitchen cabinet. Peh banyak!! While dad entertained baby, I was busy cleaning the cabinet and putting roaches paper inside the cabinet. But then, by 10pm, I was tired already so I told myself to continue tomorrow.

::4th day of fasting::

::Bread with jam for sahur::

::Bits & pieces of all the food from Geylang for buka::

Woke up at 4am to Sahur on the Sunday, couldn't go back to sleep till 7am coz baby pon bangun sahur. Always like that lah she! At 7am, slept till 9am and upon waking up, terus gi kemas barang-barang. Its like 10+ boxes to kemas and susun back into the cabinet and single-handedly but with the assistance of my little frat and mama, we finished by almost 3pm... Pinggang nak patah, bangun, tunduk, bangun, tunduk. Of course I was dead beat, then mama offered for me to sleep while she cooked for buka. Apa lagi, I slept with by little girl from 3pm to 6pm.

After buka, go Geylang lagi with my sis, her hubby and my mama. This time I promised myself not to get thing that I don't need. Managed to buy little Sarah 2 pairs baju kurung and 1 pair baju kebaya and myself, 1 cheap cheap baju kurung. The mother don't need expensive baju kurung, baju kurung at home still belambak. The bajus for my little one was so damn cute. Alahai, sungguh comel.com! But I still need to alter the kain as it's very long lah, actually tu baju untuk budak umur 1 year old.. hehehe.. tapi me being so very kiasu, baby baru 6 months, dah nak pakaikan baju kurung. Tapi really tau, she look so cute. Geram sey! Then after Geylang, proceeded back home. RJ sent us home and I punch-in by 10.30pm. Again, hubby tak kerja. Rupanya dia demam... alahai kesiannya sayang.

::5th day of fasting::

::Roti with kari & sardin for sahur::

::Spaghetti & Udang Gulai Nenas for buka::

::6th day of fasting::

::Plain water for sahur::

First love is always hard to let go, no doubt about it. Obliging for a separation means there won't be at least a 5% chance of getting back together again in the near future. There will be stages of changes in a relationship which I would call a love cycle. Relationship that is settled in the name of love somestimes doesn't last. Mindset and sacrifices are the basics that will be needed to foresee everything. If you think that love, mindset and sacrifices are enough, you'll be amaze when you go through that journey, you'll discover that these 3 factors comprises only 3/4 part in your life. Love is full of surprises. Being in a relationship is like gambling, you won't know if you'll lose or win. Being in a relationship is like building a wooden house, you won't know if it'll get attack by termites.

Losing a soulmate when you've just got to know them is a painful process but it would be more pain-streaking if you went through longer years to only realize later that he/she is not the right one for you. To err is human. We go through process of changing, be it in outlook or inner self. Character, attitude and personality wise, you'll see the before and after effects only when you reach to a certain mature age. By that time, to look back and regret, it will then be too late and not under any circumstances that you are able to change back time.

If I could turn back time, I'd wish to be single again. Then I can be with my parents, having their companion, taking them out and being with them for as long as I like. How I yearn to have life with no commitments. Blearghhhh, this is what happens when you don't have enough sleep, the mind starts wondering.

:: 2nd day of fasting ::

:: Western food for sahur ::

:: Bakchang & Bubor Chacha for buka ::

Teka Teki

Ada satu kapal besar, kapal besar kena makan dengan ikan lagi besar. Lepas tu seorang budak memasukkan ikan besar itu ke dalam poket dia. Apa yang besar?

Dalam banyak-banyak mee, mee apa yang tak leh di goreng?

Binatang apa yang kakinya di kepala, badannya di kepala dan tangannya di kepala?

Mengapa orang gali kubur tak pakai seluar dalam?

Ada seekor beruang, bila dia nampak ayam dia makan. Bila dia nampak kucing dia makan. Bila dia nampak burung dia makan tapi bila dia nampak ulat gonggok, dia tak makan. Kenapa?

Intisari Rancangan

Sementara nak pikiak jawapan, marilah kita ikuti harian Doink buat hari ini.

12.30am - tidur

3.30am - terbangun. suami balik, tukar plastik tong sampah dalam bilik peh kuat

3.45am - terbangun. suami kejut, tanya tak bangun sahur.

4.00am - terbangun. baby nangis pulak!

4.15am - terbangun. bunyi alarm dari hp tanda bangun sahur.

4.30am - bangun sahur.

Conclusion - meNGANTUK gara-gara tidur bangun, tidur bangun macam ni.

Ingin mengambil kesempatan untuk mengucapkan Selamat Menyambut Awal Ramadhan kepada semua umat Islam yang membaca blog ini. Sama-samalah kita berdoa agar puasa dan ibadah kita diberkati Allah swt. Amin ya rabbil alamin.

Jawapan : Penipu besar / Misai / Kutu /Kalau gali kubur pakai seluar dalam bila nak habis? Org gali pakai cangkul! / Sebab dia dah kenyang dah... Hehehehehehe

Sesungguhnya, posting hari ini disebabkan oleh otak yang tengah cramp. Selamat petang!

Dear baby,

Mama would want so much to see you happy

Your cheeky smile and laughter usually made my day

Couldn't bear to even leave you for second

Mama have no choice but to sacrifice for your well being

Mama wants you to know that you are my angel

Your presence in the family enhanced the relationship

Live seems unjoyful without you by my side

I'm tortured and wrecked should I see you in pain

Love you forever, my little princess

Your mama, blog posting in advance after foreseeing her day tomorrow will be busy

SLEEPY MONDAY

My darling baby had fever on Friday but upon my return from work, her fever had since subdue a little. Then came Saturday morning when she's suppose to have her 5th month dosage of injection. I brought her to poly still but just for consultation instead. After that we took a taxi ride to Bishan to be with my parents for a while.

Baby, although sick, was not at all cranky so when mum had to leave for work by lunch time, I left with her too but instead of proceeding straight home, I singgah John Little at Specialist Centre. Alamak! Red Hot Sale! Stoopid me, I forgot to bring the 20% discount voucher not knowing that I will be there that day. While my well behaved baby slept in her pram, I had fun doing the shopping for her. Bought her little pink dresses and some other accessories for her play time. I also bought skirt and top for the twins. Thus after shopping, I made my way to Killiney Road to meet my lil sister and pass her the twins stuff.

I always make sure when I goes out shopping on a Saturday, to reach home before hubby did, although he knows we're out. Instead of taking the train, I fork out extra money and took a cab and we did arrived home before him. But due to my utmost disappointment, he had to leave again for a wedding invitation upon reaching home and since he's riding and going with his friends who are also riding bike, baby and me has to stay home. So much for our returning home early from town.

Then came night, hubby had to go for his usual night work. Baby's temperature rise a little. I thought she was allright but somewhere after mid-night, her head and body was so hot. She's asleep yet in her sleep, she cried so loud as though someone beat her. I guess it was probably due to her 39.2 degree celcius fever hence she started having nightmare etc. I stayed awake and come 3am, hubby wasn't home yet. He'd probably was at that 24hours coffee shop with his night job colleagues. While he enjoy his supper, I'm at home crying. Yes, crying coz I felt the pain watching my baby who is normally cheerful being in that sorrow state, with eyes gazing at me so very weakly.

I then fell asleep only to wake up at 5am when baby cried again. She's having nightmare again and hubby is still not back. Anger made me lock the bedroom door. At 5.30am I heard hubby's knocking but I remained silent. I had switched off my mobile earlier thus there was no way for him to reach me. When the silent knocking disappeared, I almost thought he went to sleep on the couch but no, he had the cheek to leave the house again. At 7am, I called his mobile and he replied that he's on his way back home from watching people fishing at Punggol Marina. I was devastated but I admit it was my fault. If I didn't lock the door, he'd probably be carrying baby and soothe her. I went back to lie on the bed. By the time he reached home, I pretended to be asleep. He woke me up.

"Yang, nanti baby bangun, kita pergi swimming eh." I guess he meant good wanting to cover his wrong doings as Sunday is always family day for us but only to hear my holler.

"You kelakar ke apa??? Baby demam lah!"

I tried going back to sleep but as I am the type who'd once awaken, couldn't go back to sleep that easily, sleeping is out of the question. In turn, I had shower, got ready and got baby ready since her fever has dropped again.

"Yang, you nak gi mana?"

"Gi breakfast pat McDonald. Gi siaplah, you know it's Sunday today." I know I was harsh but heck, couldn't help it. He arise from the bed looking so very groggy. In the end, I felt pity as he really hasn't got enough sleep and rest.

"Dahlah. I think you go and sleep. I keluar ngan Baby jer. The next time you come home at this kind of hour, no more family day on Sunday. It will just be my day with my baby." He was of course happy to get his peaceful sleep amidst my nagging. In the end, I took baby for a morning walk to SPC and then back home. The rest of the hours were spend on the bed, playing with baby and watching hubby snoring his way to lalaland.

I'm still groggy with the sleepless night since Friday and I thought I saw a panda bear in the mirror this morning. What a lousy weekend!